After my first week away from home, i spent the weekend with family in Big "D". Today i had a moment of being disoriented, not sure if i was in Houston or Dallas. When i go home this Friday, it will be the first time in 2 weeks.
My Lil' Un is staying in Dallas with The Cousins this week; he wasn't even sad when i left. i was relieved that there wasn't any crying when we said good-bye...at least on his part, there wasn't. I had a little break-down on my way out of town.
It was the first time since i received my diagnosis that i was mad about Cancer. I can handle the inconvenience of having 25 treatments in Houston, dealing with uncertainties and any surgery-related pain. The cancer is on my leg, its my problem. The unexpected reality is that it affects those i love, so its become their problem too, and i don't like that. I just want to yell at my knee: " Leave my family out of this, Cancer! Don't mess with my little boy."
It makes me mad enough to get all worked up and wanna put up my dukes.
Thankfully, my son is in good hands this week. i can sleep easy just knowing that he's happy. Sure, just hearing some random kid say "mama" in the store today made me homesick to hear T's squeaky little toddler voice...but i'm not worrying. I know that he's getting lots of love, and that settles my heart.
Monday, June 18, 2007
I just want to yell at my knee
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hm. archiving by title. this should be located under settings, then under the archiving tab. each layout is different, so i'm not sure what you can do. i can archive by daily, weekly or monthly. daily might be as close as you can get. i say go for it!
and the adsense thing is strange. i'm still figuring out if it's worth it. though with my wonderful success on amazon, i may hold off a little longer.
see you soon!
oh, and i made a gmail address just for my blog. cause i'm, you know, cool.
the.new.me.blog@gmail.com
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